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Lost Myself

Tue, 12 May 2009 00:24:01 -0700

I've lost myself about 3-4 years ago, I searched everywhere; under couches, in the kitchen, called all the neighbors!! I put ads everywhere, I tried Waseet, Mumtaz, even Sheehan! I called al Wakeel morning show. I even asked "7azzak ma3 3aboud!" But I still can't find me anywhere! I think I will just give up and buy a new one.

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Perfectly Imperfect

Sat, 02 May 2009 12:14:00 -0700

I was attending some kind of a Yoga, Meditation silent course a few days ago, it was one of the best experiences I've ever been through. They teach you how to accept your life in order to be able to handle things the right way, and how acceptance is the first step to solving problems. If you don't accept the fact that you have a problem how would you be able to find solutions!

Anyhow, this isn't what I wanted to talk about. One of the most beautiful things that the teacher told me when I was talking to her, telling that I am a happy person, I live my day, accept the ups and downs in life and all the good stuff I think I have in my MODEST personality. She was looking at me and smiling. It was obvious that she was impressed (and I don't deny it that I love the feeling of impressing people) I kept talking and talking and I finally said the cliche people always say after talking about all the good things in them; "Sure I know I am not perfect, no one is!" . Usually saying that is a relief for the person in front of you, you can see it in their eyes. But she surprised me saying, No, everyone is perfect in their own way.

Of course I was ashamed of myself at that moment, I was complimenting myself for like 15 minutes to someone who thought we are all perfect. She said, perfection is loving and accepting our imperfection perfectly.

If we could just see ourselves in that way! We always think of perfection as complete, error-less, beautiful.. etc. And that's why we are never satisfied with ourselves (of course it varies from person to another); While we can have lots of defaus and accept ourselves perfectly 'cause this is how we've been made, Perfectly Imperfect :)

PS: Is defau a real word, or did I just made it up?

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Promise is a Promise

Sat, 02 May 2009 11:08:04 -0700

I promised my friend to have my first post here maybe two weeks ago, but apparently I didn't keep my promise. But I guess better late than never. I used to have a blog else where but i quit writing there more than a year and a half ago! I always have so many topics to talk about, I get so excited when I talk that I never complete stories and always forget what was the main subject I was supposed to be talking about; but when I decide to write sth down I find nothing to talk about!! Like now I am just babbling and babbling about nothing!

You know how you type a sentence then delete it, then you write a whole paragraph and then delete it. and then you decide to blabber again :D I think my next posts should be mush better than this one.... Or maybe not.

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